I am literally holding my eyes open with toothpicks right now. O my! I stayed up too late last night, but it was necessary. I printed some things for the church and stayed up talking to Rob for a while. Rob went down to Livorno (3 hours away) yesterday for some training to get ready for his certification and did not get home until 11ish. By the time I was able to close my eyes, it was 1:45ish. Not good.
I am going to make myself a WHOLE POT of coffee and see if it helps. I feel sorry for the ladies at breakfast this morning! hehehehe! You are in for a treat with a highly caffeinated Leighann! It reminds me of the squirrel on Over The Hedge. That is a great movie! We are having breakfast this morning at Ms. Isabella's house and I am really looking forward to it. This lady has been such an encouragement to me and helps to hold me accountable to the Lord with my walk. We are blessed with the leadership of our church.
We had a different service last night but even with the children "being children" God was able to speak to us. It is so important that we keep our hearts and minds focused on the Lord. Hunter is going through some struggles right now, but I am determined to help my little angel become all that He can be IN THE ARMY OF THE LORD! We have been talking about our choices when we are at a crossroad. We can either choose right which comes with the blessings and fellowship of God, or we can choose wrong which comes with punishment and separation. I am so amazed to see the understanding on his face and watch him when he decides to choose right. He doesn't always choose this the first time, and I have to hold to my word and administer the punishment, but when he chooses right, my heart spills over with joy. He has started saying things like, "I am bad and can't do anything right." It breaks my heart. We haven't every told him anything even similar to this, nor have we tried to break his spirit. I have really been reinforcing the fact that our flesh and physical nature are of the world and would have us to do wrong, but when we are saved, we have the Lord in our spirit working hard to help us fight our flesh and do the things of God. I am trying to help him understand what it means to feed his spiritual man so he can grow and overpower the natural man. It is hard for such young boy who has many things, including genetics, working against what I am trying to teach. Poor boy got a double dose of stubborness when he was conceived. He told me yesterday that he knew he had anger problems. I was so proud that he has realized that, but still hurt because my little boy has to fight this. I don't want him to struggle with the battle of anger that his father struggled with during his life. I have the potential to have this problem, I guess we all do, but a constant renewing of our hearts and taking control of our thoughts, helps us to be free of anger and bitterness. I am most certain that our biggest battle is within our own minds.
Anyway, those are just a few things that have been on my heart recently. There are others, but just pray that the Lord will help me to be the woman that He has called me to be. There are three things that I desire to be more than anything else in this world; to be a faithful servant of God, to be a devoted, submissive wife (there are construction zone signs all over this one!), and to be a Godly mother who raises my children to truly LOVE their Heavenly Father and others. I pray these are always my desires first and foremost. I don't ever want to be complacent with my attitude and walk with the Lord. I want to always grow. I had a friend of mine tell me how she had such a good day and then it got the best of her in the evening. My reply was, " I was having a good day, and then I got out of bed." I am always getting in my own way of my desires. When the Lord gets me straight, those things will all fall into place. Fixing me has to be quite a job!
I miss my parents right now. I miss the leadership of my dad (never thought that would happen when I was growing up.), and I miss the ability to be able to sit with my mom, pour my heart out, and have her hold me and tell me it will all be ok. Enough of that though, I do not want to start the water works this morning.
It is that time. Little Fisher is not going to be happy that I am making him leave his warm bed to get up in the cool air. Maybe a little chocolate milk will persuade him. :) Hope everyone has a great Thursday!
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